No baby, come back!

I love my kids. I love watching them grow and accomplish. (yes they are only 5, 3 and 15 months) But even at their ages they are so smart and talented and beautiful. I love hearing them express there love for Jesus and sharing the things they learn at church. And there sweet little prayers mean so much to me because they are proof that they are really learning about what's important.

Dray starts kindergarten next August and he is so excited, also he starts football this month (it's just flag, I'm not brave enough yet for tackle.)And he loves to draw, he calls himself an artist and is even picky about his art subjects. There are some days I'm not sure I would get through if he wasn't here helping me, proving to me what a caring, loving spirit he has. Peyson loves to sing and dance and has such a strong personality, I will never have to worry about her being pushed around. But she is also my sweet princess who is always so concerned with mommy. Always making sure mommy is ok. Then there is Deagan. He is the funniest person he knows. I can't believe at 15 months someone can be so determined and independent. He is a charmer and can solve the worlds problem with that dreamy little smile of his.

My little sponges are soaking up so much and becoming such individual little sponges. Deagan has started walking a bit, and I do mean a bit(why walk when mommy can carry you, it's faster) and everytime he gets that determined look on his face and takes a step, a look of pride sweeps over his face ............and I have to fight the urge to just push him down. There I said it. I don't want my sweet babies growing up and not needing me. I never knew I could feel so proud and panicked at the same time. I want them to be strong and independent, but I also want them to stay babies that always need me. But I guess that's what motherhood is all about. Teaching them and loving them and being there for whatever they need (unfortunately that need rapidly decreases), and letting them grow up to be amazing people.

Luckily they are still only 5, 3 and 1, so I still have plenty of time for them to need me, just in new, different forms of need.